Turtles all the way down

Sixteen year old Aza never intended to pursue the mystery of fugitive billionaire Russell Pickett, but theres a hundred thousand dollar reward at stake and her best and most fearless friend, Daisy is eager to investigate. So together they navigate the short distance and broad divides that separate them Russell Picketts son Davis.
      Aza is trying. Trying  to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good student,  and maybe even a good detective, while also living within the veer tightening spiral of her own thoughts.


I received this book from GMA the other day when John Green was there, i wasn't sure if i was going to enjoy this book since he has a young following. As i began to read though i found myself unable to stop reading.
While the back story intertwined with Aza's personal struggles, is finding the missing billionaire. Most of  the story is about Aza and the mental issues she is facing. I found this part to be the best, because it is something a lot of young adults, and adults are facing. Thoughts that are not your own, you can't control your mind, and your sucked into this ever tightening spiral of thoughts that take over and control your life. I know from personal experience someone who suffers from something similar, not to the extent Aza does in the book, but thoughts that never stop, a mind that cannot be controlled by our selves. Where as Aza not only feels that she is unable to control what is going on, but she feels as though she is not real, a fictional character being narrated by someone else. That her life does not matter, because everything that is going to happen to her has already been decided by someone else. The extremes she goes to will blow your mind and help you to better understand mental illness.
The title Turtles all the way down is a metaphor that i had to research because i wasn't sure until further into the book, but it pretty much means ""Turtles all the way down" is an expression of the infinite regress problem in cosmology posed by the "unmoved mover" paradox. The metaphor in the anecdote represents a popular notion of the model that Earth is actually flat and is supported on the back of a World Turtle, which itself is propped up by a column of turtles.^[1]Questioning what the final turtle might be standing on, the anecdote humorously concludes that it is "turtles all the way down". (taken from Wikipedia). 
I loved this metaphor because within itself it deals with the mental illness that Aza deals with, that she cannot find her self within her own body. She is just turtles all the way down.